Tag: alcoholic
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The Boiling Point
Why do we use? For me, there were stages of why. And then there’s staying sober and learning to live without checking out. It’s not easy, and I understand why it’s so hard for addicts to stay sober. In sobriety we reach a boiling point where we either drink or trudge on. We don’t have…
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A Spiritual Awakening
I hear that this is key to my recovery, but what is a spiritual awakening and why is it so important? For me, awakening means becoming aware of something. I’m waking up, or becoming conscious. What do I need to become aware of? At first it was that I was an alcoholic. But that was…
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Forgiveness
Oh boy is this a tricky topic. And sometimes I question whether I know how to forgive or not, but I have some experience with the subject. When I got sober, I was convinced that my parents and childhood were to blame for my alcoholism and subsequent circumstances. If they hadn’t screwed me up I…
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Loving our past self
A few times lately I’ve heard sober folks talk about their pasts as if they are the worst person on earth. I can’t tell if it’s true self-loathing or thinking it’s what we are supposed to do. In each case, the woman went on and on about how selfish and horrible she was while drinking,…
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Vulnerability and the Alcoholic
Ugh vulnerability. Defined as the “willingness to show emotion or to allow one’s weaknesses to be seen or known; willingness to risk being emotionally hurt”. Or as I think of it, truly being myself despite the risks involved. Why is this so difficult for the alcoholic (addict) and why is not being vulnerable detrimental to…
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What does it mean to be spiritual?
I am one of those that confused religion and spirituality. And once I learned the difference, I still thought there was a religious component to spirituality. Religion is a set of rules that a group is to follow or receive consequences. Similar to the law, it’s one sided and doesn’t leave much room for interpretation.…
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The Higher Power
Nothing and I mean nothing bothered me more about recovery than the higher power. Just prior to getting sober, my concept of a higher power consisted of fear, contempt and a belief that I had to think and be a certain way to avoid the fires of hell. I was raised in a half agnostic…
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Meditation
Love it or fear it, meditation is one of the most important things and addict can do to get better. I’ve learned so much about meditation over the past decade that I could write a book in it. But for this post I’m going to focus on the why and how. So why is meditation…
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The Root of Alcoholism
What makes me an alcoholic?! Drinking too much for one, but why did I drink so much? What possessed me to drink lethal levels of alcohol and bottom out my life? I’ve asked myself that question and the answer is rooted in the way I think and feel on a regular basis. It may sound…
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