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Some days I can’t even
Some days I can and some days I can’t even. Yesterday I felt great and got so much accomplished. Today I was tired, achy and just not feeling it. Maybe I’m a little under the weather or maybe I’m feeling a little depression. Or maybe it’s a combo of both. I tend to over evaluate…
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Change is constant
Ugh. I like when things are exactly the same all the time. Except when I want them to be different, of course. In fact, if I had a superpower, it would be to predict the future. Just because it would make me more comfortable, and I could prepare for (control) any upcoming changes. I get…
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The hardest thing for an alcoholic is…
Not drinking. Duh, right? Well, why is that? Why can’t we just stop or why is it hard to be sober? At the beginning, middle and end of my drinking, it served a purpose. Sure, sometimes it was to have fun. But, most of the time it was to alleviate something. In the beginning, alcohol…
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The early years of recovery
Ugh the beginning of recovery is the best of times and the worst of times. What a gigantic mind f$ck the whole thing is. It’s great to not be drunk and hungover. To fall asleep instead of pass out. To not worry about what you did the night before. That terrible paranoia of piecing things…
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I’m afraid of my feelings
And I don’t particularly like the bad ones, either. The vast majority of staying sober is learning how to feel your feelings. I talk a lot about how our feelings are much more intense than our normie counterparts. For example, on a scale of 1-10, a normie’s fear is around a 4 on average. Mine…
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Acceptance
What does it mean to accept a situation? Acceptance is an important part of life. It means that I know a situation is exactly the way it’s supposed to be, or that whatever happened or didn’t happen just is what it is. Accepting I am an alcoholic means I believe that I cannot drink and…
Sober Tiffany 